Shit… great, now I can’t sleep…
I’m gonna blah blah blah so ignore the rest of this post… either I type this down somewhere or my head’s gonna exploded.
So I was thinking about this in the past couple days… About arguments ‘caused by conflict of believes, mostly of some past situations that my group have had, and also linked to the old problems some people used to have with me.
One side believes he/she is right and so as the other side, but in the end, some cases noone is right and noone is wrong, but some cases I came across troubles my head.
What if one’s action is really wrong but that person doesn’t think there is anything wrong at all? For example, the kind of hypocritical action against his/her own supporting reason in that current argument, which probably makes the argument becomes meaning less but as he/she keeps pushing or attacking, with or without noticing it?, of course the other sides gonna get irritated and fight back or at minimum, try to annoy him/her back as the stupid shit goes on and on then not only about his/her making a fool of his/herself anymore but both of them.
I’m also pretty sure there’s no such thing as perfect repression when someone receives an attacking message, specially with emotional people. At minimum, the feeling responding to that message must be irritated or even offended,
unless the receiver was intentionally trolling and await for that kind of messages which will be a complete different case, but normally it’s up to the receiver if he/she is going to take it seriously or not.
In conclusion, I realized that, proving someone wrong is kinda meaning less ‘cause they chose to believe what they think is right for them and their action is justified, no matter if it is or not to you, you can only keep it to yourself. Giving warning once is probably alright but trying to convince and reasoning with them would only cause annoyance may be not much but still, specially among friends. Specially nowadays when warning is nothing but annoyance and insult and people rather believe from their own experiences. If you really care for someone, shut the fuck up, act stupid, and only stand by for when they need a shoulder to cry on…
How to accept things the way they are without losing motivation?
May be I think too much, but then is it good for me? It is. Is it not? well, some times.
If you don’t get what mean by accepting things the way they are, take this as an example; a group of people who can’t accept that the world doesn’t revolves around them and they have no control over. When that group of people throw shit about some triggers they dislike, or about other people’s point of view that’s different from theirs. [I’m soooooo not insulting anyone at all lulz, but it’s still the easiest example here] It is something I’ve overcame years ago, does it make me happy? Yes, ‘cause I don’t have to get a headache every time someone say something I don’t like, and yes, everyone has their right to believe what they want as long as they don’t try to beat it into other people’s head, violently, and unreasonably driven by their emotion.
So, to think further than that, like to get something that’s known to be very hard to achieved to fulfill something that’s missing, for example; true friend, lover, successful career, something that doesn’t just involve my own action but also affected by many other factors that I have no control over. I just want to accept it because ‘It’s just the way it is’ but the more I believe in that, the more it kills my motivation while another thought that came along is, ‘what’s the point of trying or hoping if it’ll bring disappointment’, but then again, it’s just the way it is.
As a result, I don’t get anything I look for and I’m not happy with the result anyway, but that was after I’ve faced years after years of disappointment already. Am I sad? sometimes, but mostly, it’s like ‘blahhhh’ because 'It's just the way it is' Looking in the good side, may be it’s what keeping me away from being depressed, but in the bad side, it prevents me from trying. So, this thought is like a double edges sword…
Some people say it like it’s easy, just walk the middle path, balance this thoughts out and do what you can, don’t think too far of the outcome, don’t give in too much to the negative factors. Nothing is certain. Well, may be it’s not certain but the some probability is predictable, the chance of failing is so high and then again, the motivation dies. And walking middle path is not that easy at all, specially for an artsy bitch like me.
I don’t know… May be I’m just being too pessimistic. Any input?
Had a dream of playing with baby rainbow big birds those nearly peak my eyes out- o-o
What the hell was I on last night…
I later found myself in the hunger-game with a foking persona of a monkey too…