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1 term project presentation, 1 exhibition, 2 commissions, 7 painting, 2 Final exams, a Thesis Proposal to go… x_x all has to be done before the end of next month.

so little time…

vacation… I need you… so I can just lay on my ass playing game all day…
[If my workaholic doesn’t kick in and make me take more commissions…]

-want- ;_; feeddd meeeeeeee

Shipping in the US.
Game: $120, Shipping: FREE

International Shipping.
Game: $195, Shipping: $50

FUCK OUTTA HERE!!!! (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

And being broke now… Current hunting list;

• Fallout New Vegas Collector’s Edition [Around $200+ $50Shipping]
  Got it for $122 shipping included + CEGuide for $40 [June 4]
  
• Fallout 3 Collector’s Edition [Around $110+ $50 Shipping]
• Space Marines Collector’s Edition [Around $120+$50 Shipping] 
• Mass Effect 3 Collector’s Edition [Around $100+ $30 Shipping] I dont like the game but I don’t like it more having ME1andME2CE without ME3CE in my shelf…

I blame you for getting me into Fallout fandom, Ruben T_T

I DUN WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL!!!! -CREYS-

If there’s ever any AI that’s as open as table top RPG…

thesfjumps:

It needs a spanking, and some anal

Totally,

First it doesn’t recognize custom fonts from other domain,
Turn out it just barely recognize any custom font.

I’m tempting to turn to Darkside Chrome

It’s just so annoying, designing a page and try so hard to make it available for every browser but it’s impossible…

(Source: yuikami, via marsandtarge)

But what other choice do I have if I want to be prosperous…

Gotta keep fighting…

fuck study T_T

halp…

I can’t just sit and study…

Wake up early in the morning > Play game > Take a nap in the afternoon and Wake up after sunset > More game > Another nap couple hours after midnight

Halp ;_;

Still have a hard time getting into New Vegas…

I really tried this time after taking a little long break, but everything is so slow, the combat, the traveling, and I still can’t blend my head into the situation nor dialog. I’m not saying the game is bad and I get how some people like it but it is still not my cup of tea. The NPC are too dead to me when I talk to them and it happened to me in Oblivion as well.

Can’t just say I suck at it too cause the game is easy and I actually enjoy RP+FPS or openworld from 2K and Relics, raping through second playthrough and try to clear them multiple times and shit. Just… I’m a sucker for great story and interaction with npcs, not dead-face robots…

Wish I can feel the fun the others feel from Bethesda’s games… everyone ones of my friends seems to have fun with Fallout.

May be another replay… ಠ_ಠ

I’m all Stand-by for more gaming campaign book and magazine assignments, I won’t be opening up the commission slot until after May or worst, til the end of July.

I’m kinda chasing fame over money now, not that I don’t want to take your commission, I would love to make all my artwork fans happy, but a couple days ago I failed to get my dream job [Painting for Paizo publisher, specially in their upcoming hardcover NPC codex.] just because of the TF2 fanarts I have, covering my fantasy artwork in my online portfolio.

The first goal of my life career was just right there in front of me… I don’t know how high my chance was but I have the feeling that I was so close to getting it if they could see what I just finish for the up coming magazine this end of May.

I regret getting into TF2 fandom [‘cause of all the stupid drama and the time I lost from it], and want to go back to what I do better, medieval fantasy character design. This means I won’t be drawing much of anything related to TF2 or modern work for a long while[Unless it’s a commission]. And this was told by someone who’s pretty close to the publisher that “TF2 did delay my development” and I rather take his word cause he’s a professional and the one who kept offering great opportunities, not just some fun.

Just wanna get this out, in case you’re wondering why I’ve been really stressed out in the past couple days of having low tolerance towards some dumbass and made some idiot pay for it. It doesn’t mean I won’t be able to get this job again, just gotta have to wait along time for the fish to come by ‘cause opportunity like this don’t come often[work for the dream company with the skill I’m most proficient at] and I’m working my hardest to get my first hand on it. I don’t know what kind of world other people ‘live in’, but in mine, there’s always competitions and I don’t plan to be someone complaining how hard it is just to find a job but sit home and crave for fandom all day, doing nothing ‘realistically’ productive.

So what if I make my own life frustrating if the moment I walk into my fandom and I’m the one who people point at in surprised, admire, recognized me for my skill, and point at the hardcover book with my artworks in it, it will be worth it. Also, looking at this in business way, fame increases the value of the artist’s signature, the skill alone doesn’t mean much anymore since there’re too many skilled artist nowadays.

Money or Fame…
Money or Fame…
Money or Fame…
Money or Fame…
Money or Fame…